I'm pregnant!

We don't plan on making a big or formal announcement but I'll be honest here because frankly, I'm not one to hide what I'm going through or experiencing.  It started with my month long denial.  Frankly, I always thought I'd have trouble getting pregnant and I actually had an innate fear of discovering I'd have fertility issues.  But nope!

The first two weeks presented itself as extreme fatigue.  Like, a wave of sleepiness would hit me through out the day and I could barely stay awake or function.  I linked it to being tired watching my niece daily, but little did I know this was a huge sign of pregnancy! I also didn't think you'd show symptoms so immediately.  I was hinted by a friend a few times, but I remained in denial.  Because of extreme fatigue, I started giving myself the okay to drink two coffees a day on emergency and I absolutely needed it basis.  There was one day where I drank coffee in the morning and felt a bit nauseous but didn't think much of it because I didn't have a hearty breakfast so nausea wasn't completely unusual.  But it wasn't until October 30th that I had my second fill at 4 pm that the wave of nausea seemed unusual.  I had an extremely hearty pasta lunch so that did not make any sense.  Finally, I came home and took the pregnancy test.  Low and behold, it said pregnant!  I took a second just because the denial was still prominent, and no change.  

With that being said, the next few weeks filled me with anxiety and worries.  I've read and heard so much on chemical pregnancies (miscarriages) and people going to the first ultra sound with no signs of a heart beat.  So I told myself, until there's proof of life, to not get too excited.  But again, that couldn't be helped to some degree.  My first thoughts were we aren't ready and in some ways it still is.  

I wasn't scheduled for my first ultra sound until week 7 so I had to wait three excruciating weeks.  We decided not to tel any family or close friends until then as well because if it was a negative experience, I wanted to give us space to deal with our emotions first and foremost-- but low and behold, the heart beat was there.  We've experienced 2 more ultrasounds and each and every time our baby is there with a strong heartbeat.  So I guess it's really happening and it's definitely like that!