Some people have gotten to the point where they dislike New Year's Reoslutions because they realize they won't ever follow through and by the end of the year, they forget what they even vowed to do for the year.  I think the problem is thinking long term versus the immediate future and being too ambitious.  Don't make a list.  Think of one or two really important things to you and come up with a realistic plan on following through.  If you want to write more, don't expect to finish a chapter in one day but devote 15 - 30 minutes per day.  Don't make it so that the task seems daunting but something you want to achieve because it seems doable.  

Though you should always try to follow through on your goals and priorities, not just because it's New Year's, but New Year's and firsts and end of the month are reminders and great time for evaluation.  It's like  someone's birthday — you shouldn't just wait until then to show someone you love them or care for them or how special they are.  But again, it's designated days that help remind you.  

It is December 1st and all of the previous month's ups and downs are still very much with me.  But I feel good because we're starting a new month.  If there's a bad day, there's always going to be a new day.  If there was a bad month, there's always going to be a new month.  Soon enough, it will be December 31st with all of 2019's hopes and promises.  At the tail end of November, I think I had such a sensory overload that I just dropped my 30 days of 30 minutes of writing goals.  I don't really feel bad though because I feel like my reasons were valid and other priorities came in.  Would I want to do the challenge again?  Maybe at some point.  I did consciously think about needing to write every day of the 30 days though.  I feel pretty good with the progress I made and what I was getting out of the writing, but I was also getting stuck in a place of solitude that pushed me away from doing my other norms that were also healthy for me.  I've veered away from going to the gym for the last 6 months or so, and I found myself feeling unhappy and unhealthy.  So I went and I gave myself a mental check that going to the gym didn't mean I had to be competitive but just listen to my body and what it wanted and could do.  That's definitely out of my norm but things have to change since my needs and circumstances are always changing. 

Things are definitely changing rapidly and I wish I could fully say what they are, but we're still waiting to be 100% sure they're going to pan out.  I'm beyond excited and hope it happens, but for now, I'll keep my fingers crossed. 

I'm hoping for the month, I can keep balance in writing, work, and fitness.