Some days, it's been hard to focus and other days it's slightly easier.  But for the most part it's been tough.  I'm preparing myself to say goodbye tomorrow and I'm dreading every bit of it.  I feel like I keep preparing myself to say goodbyes day after day.  A part of me is inclined to veg out and not do anything, but the logical part of me knows I need to pull it together enough to get what I need to do.  It's not just my life at stake.  

But I know Khoa has been sending me light and love through old friends and new.  People have been reach out to me, old friends and new, to check on me.  I'm grateful for these expressions of care.  

This photo was taken when Khoa and I were attending our youth group's camping trip.  We were sent to a meeting spot as drivers, only to find out there was no one to drive.  We called the group leader only to confirm that the kids all found rides to the camp site already.  So in reality, we were sent there to carpool with each other, and arrive to the camp site late to possibly miss the boat we rented to get from the parking lot to the camp site.  I remember being SO pissed.  Khoa wasn't happy, but I was nagging about the situation incessantly.  But yet he enabled me to make the most of the trip, enjoying our ride together.  He offered to drive, and we went.  We talked, we laughed, and we made the best of it.  I don't know how we ended up exchanging sunglasses, but we both probably just liked the style, tried it on and took this gem of a photo. 

I'm in search of peace, happiness and meaning right now. I'm wishing everyone luck on their own journey 🙏🏽✨❤️