I don’t even know where to begin but the past few years have been a constant whirlwind of changes.  Most of them have been positive, others not so much.  But even if they’re good changes, there’s a stress factor to coping and accepting them mentally, emotionally and physically.  

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There’s a story that’s not mine to tell and it was probably the thing that changed me the most.  I transformed and lept in a way I did not expect,  but I couldn’t be more proud of who I became during this turmoil.  I am passionate but I am also logical in social interactions and when necessary.  

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My time as as an administrator is coming to and end.  This is the field that taught me the most but also sent me through ups and downs of emotions.  I am astounded how someone can be made to feel less than in so many environments.  Yet, when feelings and opinions are voiced, there’s little to no change.  They are the most underpaid and overworked because they don’t directly and visibly contribute.  But they are the back bone to any system that functions.  They are the ones I would entrust because when shit hits the fan, everyone else will run in circles trying to come up to find a solution, while the admins  pragmatically research through the resources they’ve gained and built to resolve and make shit happen.  

I’ve made good money doing all this at some point. But I walked away from it, taking a pay cut because my health and well being is what’s most essential to me.  

I didn’t see myself doing anything to deserve better but I finally said enough.  

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I put in a long notice to depart my current job.  I did it for my colleagues who will be overworked because I’ve been in that position.  I’ve has barely any time to update my resume but I did it and applied to a few positions.  Little did I know, I received the phone call and emails that I’m a candidate to the field I’ve imagined and worked so hard to achieve.  I. DID. IT.  I’m here at the brinks of the place I’ve always dreamt of.  I did it.  I DID IT.  No matter how many times I repeat it to myself I am still in shock and disbelief.  Where are the cameras?  Who’s going to tell me this is all a prank?  And here I am, just pondering on what my first lesson plan will look like.  😳.  It’s real.  It’s really real.  

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It all leads me to this: every course of action I’ve taken, every obstacle I’ve ever overcome was my own doing.  I willed my strength, ability, weaknesses, determination and drive to this point in time.  I made it happen.  At one point this goal seemed unobtainable but here I am. I can conquer anything and I can do anything, and this is what I choose.  I’m ever so grateful and pray I continue this journey with strength, courage, dignity and humility to carry on.  If it’s not for me, then it’s those I will encounter and maybe change their course as many others have changed mine.  🙏🏽